This morning we got some good news. Our local council will accept us as homeless without us having to go through being given a repossession order and waiting for bailiffs. We are homeless at the date our fixed tenancy ends and at that point the council will place us in emergency accommodation. This is based on a manager's decision on our specific case.
To many the prospect of going into bed and breakfast accommodation may not be seen as good news, but I have sighed a huge sigh of relief because at least I now know what is going to happen and when. We tirelessly trawl through private rental landlords to no avail, my ad on gumtree has had no replies and the facebook group I joined and placed an ad hasn't been read by anyone.
Our impending move has also made me think about my blog and what it achieves; if it's worth continuing and if so, how do I put it on hold and retain my readers. I don't even know whether I will have any internet connection after mid May.
My blog is not inspiring, fresh or innovative. I don't take great photographs and my video posts have the worst views out of all my posts. It constantly reminds that I am no different to when I was at school "not good enough", "could do better", "average". And I hated school.
I have found my blog at times to be a useful outlet for the difficulties and challenges that I encounter with my son Samuel, a space to let off steam, and I had hoped to raise a little more awareness for 22q11 deletion syndrome, but again I don't seem to be able to find the right outlet, no matter the time and effort I have put into it.
I happily share our fun little craft activities, and our outdoor adventures at the beach, in the forest and even just feeding the ducks, but I can't share exciting adventures abroad, trips to theme parks and romantic getaway breaks for two.
So, in all honesty I can only envisage that in 4 weeks time my blog will go on hold indefinitely until we have moved and are settled somewhere with a good internet connection and somewhere that the children will actually settle to sleep before it gets too late!
Tomorrow I have a fun trip to the Kiddicare bloggers event at their new superstore in Hedge End, Southampton, to be blogged about later in the week, and for my daughters birthday on May 11th I have a beautiful poem to share.
Other than that I will be busy booking storage, packing boxes and trying my best to calm an anxious Samuel and keep everything light hearted for Oliver and Isabella.
I may be a bit crap at blogging, but I'm one heck of a strong woman and I will protect my family and support each of my children through this difficult time.
Here's hoping you stick with me until the hard times are over.
Cheers, K x