Many of my facebook and twitter followers will be aware that my eldest son, Samuel, has been suffering severe sleep issues, possibly relating to his 22q11 or ADHD. Previous blog posts have told the story around this and you can read them here.
More recently Samuel's behaviour has escalated to aggression and violence.
At first his aggression was when I would ask him to turn his laptop off, or his console. My request would be met with a growl, then gritted teeth, and then a fist threatened in my face.
The fist would be held to my face, but I could talk him down with stern words. Then came the little lashes out. The odd flick in my direction, or a leg kicking out to me, not close enough to touch, but he was showing his intention.
Since Samuel's severe sleep issues the aggression has got worse. He thinks nothing of holding a fist to my face, and kicks me often, particularly when I try to get him out of bed in the morning for school.
Now he's gone a step further. He hits me. He shunts his elbows into my body, pushes me and has hit out at my body. He is only 10 years old, but he is strong, and I know that at the moment he is holding back his full force. If he hit me with all his strength it would most definitely cause pain and bruising.
So, what do I do? At the moment I feel pretty powerless. I can't hit him back and consequences mean nothing to Samuel. Or maybe they do, but he lives with them, he doesn't care enough to change his behaviour.
Is he remorseful of his actions? No. He doesn't take on board the seriousness of his actions, forefront of his mind is his reason for hitting out in the first place. Tonight his grievance is me saying no to him using my laptop and printer to print play money.
He wants me to say yes, so he has thrown pieces of torn paper all over my husband and I, and is telling us that we are twats.
We haven't even got to bedtime yet. This will not be an easy night.
Samuel's dad was aggressive and violent towards me and having Samuel present aggressive behaviour sickens me. I'm sat here like a fool while my son hits me.